answered prayers!

On December 5, 2011 at 8:43 after 16 hrs of labor Dr. Dickerson held up my 7lb 11 oz miracle! I know people say that love at first sight is not real ,but for a mother its so real. I never knew I could love someone as much as I love john-Michael. It is such a powerful love , a love you would do anything for! Cody and I would have to pass over a few hurdles before we could get our little family home and settled. In the hospital we learned JM had a heart murmur. A heart murmur is a noise that is made by blood passing through a hole. A hole in your heart. The dr told us it was nothing to worry about. Little did he know! When we made it home we took JM to Dr. Talbot for his jaundice and murmur. We had no idea that his murmur would be a.blessing in disguise . Dr. Talbot assured us that murmur were normal ,but that she would like us to have a cardiologist check him out. On December 22nd I had my first heart wrenching mother experience. When we got to the office they hooked him up to the ekg machine as a normal procedure . We were then escorted into a ultra sound room so they could look at his heart. Cody and I were so naive the whole time. When the doctor came in and started talking I knew we were in for a shock. He began to tell us of JMs extra electrical shock and his abnormal heart rhythm. At that point the hole in his heart was the least of our worries. Everyone has a shock in their heart its what makes it beat, but when you have an extra shock your heart beats extremely fast. And having a uneven rhythm goes hand in hand with the racing heart. He began to put wires on JM and explained that we would leave this monitor on for a full 24hrs. It took everything inside of me not to break down and lose it right there. After the miscarriages and finding out I was pregnant with JM I always thought that I had been through enough and JM would be perfectly healthy. It never crosses your mind that something could be wrong with your angel. When the door of the drs office shut and we began to walk to the car I broke down. I cried the whole way home and everytime I changed his clothes and had to face the wires attached to my angel, my perfect angel, I cried! Cody and I had no idea that this was just a start of what the next month would.be like. As Christmas eve drew near we were so excited. Our Christmas miracle would be baby Jesus at church! But JM had oother plans in mind. Saturday morning I noticed him coughing and spitting up bottles. I did not want to over react so I called our drs offices nurse line. As I explain his symptoms the nurse urges us to go to the ER. I thought to myself come on please just give us a break in life please! So we took him in and of course I am a basket case when they inform me my child has RSV and will be admitted! They monitored JM all night. In a million years I never thought we would have stayed his first Christmas in the hospital. The next day the Dr came in and told us four words I pray I will never hear again. He told us if we took him home and did not suction him right that he"would not make it". I couldn't believe what I had just heard. At that point I knew how.serious this was. The nurse came in and taught us how to suction him and ten minutes later we were headed home for Christmas . Two days later I got a call from his cardiologist that JM needed to.start his heart meds that night and that they needed.to see him first thing in the morning. When they reviewed his.monitor they saw that JM had went in and out of episodes where his heart raced. At one point his heart rate was 360!!!!! Normal for a male baby is 140!!! It had already been a long.day of JM getting worse with the RSV and to top it off I get a call like that. As the night went on JM became so sick.I was sca4to death. I rushed him to Dr. Talbot and I knew it was back to the ER for us because she was even worried. This time we stayed for five nights. The kept him on oxygen and fluids. I never imagined I would not even be able to enjoy my baby the first month. The first month was filled with more tears than laughter. While in the hospital JM was baptized by Father. Not how we planned it but we knew if anything were to happen to our baby we would want him to be baptized. Life can slip right from your hands in the blink of an eye. Now that we finally have jm home we will continue to monitor his heart and check up with the Dr every two weeks. We are so blessed to have JM. He is the most precious example of life. I will never be able to explain the love I feel for him! I am thankful for all the prayers. They are what got me through.