"Saving grace"

Last year around this time Cody and I were shaken by the news that we would be parents for the THIRD time. Wait lets back this up a bit. Cody and I welcomed a beautiful not so healthy baby boy December 5, 2011 . We welcomed the most beautiful little girl November 16, 2012. Yep you read that right they aren't even a year apart. Life was grand we had the whole world in the palm of our hands. Our finances were good, our jobs were great , and our kids were finally healthy. We were able to pack them up and take them wherever we went whenever we wanted to and it was a breeze. I always knew in the back of my head that I wanted a third , but I knew I wanted JM and RL to be older. I wanted the third to be the baby of the family. Little did we know we would have 3 babies of the family. I only nursed Randee-Lyn for 2 months. When she made 8 months and I began to produce milk again , I freaked out! I called the doctor immediately. Dr. Dickerson's nurse so calmly asked are you pregnant. Even though I knew there was no way (in my mind) I so politely said no I better not be. She laughed knowing we had to babies at home already. We began some blood work which all came back great. We were at a loss and had no idea what could have trigger my milk to come back. After going back to what the nurse asked I realized I was SUPER late. I snuck over to Walgreens for a pregnancy test. It was crazy for so long those were my best friend and I bought them all the time in hopes for "two pink lines" , but this time while purchasing I was sick to my stomach. I snuck back into the house making sure Cody did not lay eyes on my EPTs. I slipped into the bathroom (how I was able to sneak in the bathroom alone without a child staring at me... I don't know). As I began to take the test and noticing that dang evaporation line that tends to keep sliding on by as the pee rolls on through wasn't sliding. Nope it just stayed there along with the other pink line. The water works began. I rushed into the other room and grabbed my sister. She was shocked along with myself. Since I told her I guess it was time to tell the baby daddy lol my husband! Oh was I scared. I asked him to come into the bathroom. He walks in and pull the test out and show him. I swear he wouldn't look at it. He said and I quote "If I don't look at it then it wont be positive" not sure where he came up with that logic , but if it made him feel better. He then tells me that he is going to work 2 hours early! So many thoughts began to race through my mind. How am I going to work, how will be afford another child, who's going to take care of my kids while I work. Lets just be honest it's hard enough to find someone that will keep two more less three. Oh I was losing it. How was I going to tote around a 2 year old , 1 year old and a newborn? We pretty much freaked out for 9 months about how we were going to rearrange our lives to fit another baby in it. God has a plan for all of us. And this was indeed his plan for Cody and I. After trying for so long and going through the loss we went through after losing three babies. God definitely provided in an abundance. We are forever thankful. Of course Cody and I knew the ends and outs of what all we needed for the hospital and what all we needed to bring a baby home. Woman's hospital has literally became our second home. Dr. Dickerson and I have literally for 3 yrs seen each other every month. May came quick and we were as prepared as we could be. As always I am induced at 38 weeks due to blood thinners. I arrived super early on May 12, 2014. We settled in and the ivs were started. I just knew this delivery would be fast and easy. HELLO its my third child in two years. About 10 hours into labor with the Pitocin going strong I still was not in the pain I "SHOULD" have been in. With little to no progress I requested a exercise ball. We felt this would help TJ drop into my birth canal. I bounced around like the women you see on the birthing stories for over an hour! I was seriously shocked when there was still no progress. So I say Indian style with my feet together. To say the least Cody was getting a kick out of all the tricks I tried , but there was still no progress. I finally decided to get an epidural. I thought maybe it would ease my nerves. I got the epidural and Dr. Dickerson came to check on me. He knows me so well that he knows you don't even discuss C-section with me. Literally he knows I lose it and cry my eyeballs out at the thought. He's so sweet and broke it to me gently that my uterus had given out on me and that he suspected the cord to be around something on TJ. He gave me a time limit and after that time he said we would have no choice but to do a C-section. At this point I really didn't care. I was tired and just wanted to get it over with. I called the nurse back in 30 minutes later and told her to get Dr. Dickerson that I was ready to have a section. After discussing my decision with him he told me to wait another hour. He said there was no going back after the decision was made and he did not want any regrets. THIS IS WHY I LOVE THIS MAN! I waited another hour and when he came back in and check me he said you know what we have to do. He stepped out to get ready and people began to come into my room to explain everything to me. Did I mention we were already 17 hours into labor and we were told it would be and hour before an OR opened up! Everyone began checking me and my mom went to grab my dad so he could come see me before I went. I just remember from the time Cody suited up he never left my side or let go of my hand. He knew I was scared. They rushed my mom back in the room and made her dress quickly. Something was happening and they felt I needed to be in an OR fast. They wheeled me back and they kept me as calm as they possibly could. Cody and mom were allowed in the room and from that time on Cody never let go of my hand. During the section I had to ask Cody to please stop making faces. He was making these horrible faces , that even though I could not see what was going on I knew because of his faces. Finally the time came when they pulled TJ. He was silent . There was no cry nothing , just a blank stare on my husbands face. The cord was around TJ's neck. And then finally I was able to lay eyes on the baby that would forever change me. We have adjusted to three kids and honestly it wasn't that hard. I have a Mr. Mom and I love him so much for all he does to help me and his babies. I am beyond grateful that my children have a daddy that can do everything I can do and sometimes better. He's amazing. We laugh all the time and I always ask Cody "what were we so scared about". Tyler-James is our saving grace! I don't even know how else to describe him but to say he is our saving grace. He's amazing and beautiful. JM and RL love him so much. Never have they showed an ounce of jealousy. They only show him LOVE. Ive never seen a baby that can bring so much love into a room without saying a word. We love him and he is truly the most perfect baby. God gave him to me at just the right time. Like I said he's my saving grace! Cody and I are about to embark on our 5th year of marriage and I couldn't imagine it any other way. I don't remember life before our kids. They are our world and our life. I wouldn't trade these night in on the couch with our angels all snuggled up for anything. I am so happy that God choose us to be their parents. We shall see what the future holds and if God has anymore plans for babies for us up his sleeve!